Threatening My Soul

 

Here I am
Once again
Trapped inside the darkness within
How can they be so ignorantly blind
To think this smile I wear is mine?

I feel as if I've been torn apart
Pieces of me are scattered about
Being stepped on or over 
Like chewed gum
I’m so empty and lonely
No one can help me out

I try like they think I don’t
I want to be well
But there’s something ill inside me
And now it’s ready to swallow me whole

Times like this I wonder if I have ever felt true joy
And would I even remember if I had
Every hard lesson I’ve learned 
Every time I’ve been burned
These moments are haunting me still

Deeper I’m sinking
Deeper still
The cold is setting in
Inside my heart and under my skin
Threatening my soul

I don’t know how much longer I can take it
Or how much longer I can fake it
Here I am again
All bound up in those tangled thoughts 
That leave me empty and wanting
Threatening my soul.

 

 

 

 

by Amanda Burns

 

 

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