Newly Opened Eyes 

 

 

The world around me seems too bright
For these newly opened eyes
Red, swollen and sore

I've been strangled by the ocean
A sea of salty tears
I've been up a river without a paddle 
So confused of how I came to be there
And unsure of how to get home

I'm lost in a haze of foggy memories 
Of the life I once possessed 
And feeling the stinging ache of every regret

My hands were tied
I was gone
On the verge of death
Playing Russian
A bullet in every chamber

Until, so slowly, I saw the light through newly opened eyes

Now every teardrop takes a little longer to dry
And all the simplicity of numbness 
It was all just a lie

And now I'm real

I feel all the joy and all the pain
With no sweetly bitter barrier to save me
Nothing is the same 
I'll never die again

I'll never give up again 
Because now I see
It was always me
I held the blade
I made the cut 
Even though I felt so very caged
I always held the key
To overcome the change

And to save my life 
I'll suffer
The Holy light that blinds me 
Stinging my newly opened eyes. 

 

 

by Amanda Burns

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