Give Up

 

Run like blood to a mystical high
Afraid to fall but I love to fly
Nothing comes without risk
Suck it down
Feel that bliss

Damn God, how I miss it
That way it was
Living for the thrill of life
Look what lust does
I have this funny little friend
Says I should hold my head up
Fuck
All I wanna do is give up

I’m in love with the anger I feel
I’m in love with the pain I know so well
No one likes to be with me
They all hate my depressing company
They live the perpetual high
It must be nice to be blind

All I do is work
Buy my slice of life
Try so hard
They all wonder why
God it’s so hard
They think it’s so damn easy
They don’t know what it’s like to be me

Now I run from the place I held so dear
Finding myself held back by my own fears
I know what it’s like to wonder
If your next check will be enough
To hold you up so you don’t go under

I run like blood from a mystical high
Afraid to fall but I think I might
These streets before me were paved in gold
But now that I’m here
I see only gravestones

I tried to go back to the way it was
But I’ve lost myself along the way
And just getting by gets harder everyday

I have this funny little friend
Says I should hold my head up
When fuck
All I wanna do is give up.

By Amanda Burns

 

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