Break Me Down

 

You try so hard to break my spirit 
And pretend you know who I am
There are these crazy accusations you throw at me
And call it tough love parenting

I am afraid
More so than I have ever been
That when I finally gain what I've worked for
That I'll want more

You tell me I’m a horrible child
And I can’t hold a candle to the rest
What can I say that ain't been said?

I’m sorry I’m not a child anymore
I am a woman with grown up problems to face
And your hugs and kisses no longer soothe my fears

I’m looking for answers I may never find
I am still your child but you act as if that’s a lie
As if all I’ll ever be is a no one in your eyes
But that’s fine

I am kind and loving and I believe 
There is goodness in people like me
I will be the first to admit

That my downfalls can be counted by twos to one hundred
But where I am in my life right now
I have nothing to lose

You make me feel awful when I know I’m doing fine
You say that you love me but you hide me from sight
I hate to leave but I know it’s my time
I have break free or break apart inside.

 

 

 

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